this is the story of a gurl…

just finishing a marathon class with Dr San2.. if in last block, i remember tt i said ‘block with no anatomy is sooo membosankan’, but now i think to declare tt i said none of these. & i want to declare tt ‘block with soo much anatomy is sooo killing-me-from-the-inside-of-my-cerebral-part. (cerebellum ke cereberum?ntah..see..so hopeless of me). but the most best part tt i like in the Dr San2 lecture (of course not the muscles part), is when she keeps encouraging us to be patient. sabar2..it’s not easy to handle people’s life. but btw at the end, it worth the efforts. think back about the 1st intention why u are here & think back how nobel the work is. & let it be the driver of our declining passion. btw, life’ like tt.

         talk about patient… lately byk btol bende2 yg menguji kesabaran aku. everytime i’m doing my works in front of my lattop…tup! PADAM!  arghh… byk kali keje aku delay sbb buat2 padam. & takkanla stiap sentence aku wat nak kene save.if it wording works, i still can bare the tension. but if it came to the graphic works…adoo… sabar2…n when thinking to buy the new lattop suit with my current income, byk plak criteria yg kene amik kira. what kind of processorla, model apala, ader accelerator ke takla, n bla3… dahla sedia ade lembab byk dlm bab2 IT nih. so hv to spend hours starring at the lattop catalogs n reading all the nonsense abbreviations. sabar2…

          then when come to the study part (dgn semangat yg membaranya), all the books are open simultaneously. Moore, atlas, crash course, lecture’s notes, yadaa2… try remembering every single words with the rite pronounciation & spelling, but when it came to the tutorials, already "all gone with the wind"… mucsles of posterior compartment dah jadi medial compartment, artery dah tukar jadi nerve, femoral sheath dah jadi femoral opening. last2 ternganga balik with saying ‘terfikirkan ada terkatakn tiada’.

           btw, it’s quite seronok hvg life like this, seriously. this is not a rationalize thinking. at least i’ve experienced the disease called gastroesophagealrefluxdisease, i know how to shout ‘politely’ (as respect to my senior rumates yg tensen nak pro final year) when the lattop padam2, i know how to keep smiling when heard all the weird anatomical names, i know how to iron all the dresses in my almari when at tt moment the thing wanna do is throwing away all my books. n the most important thing is i know how to enjoy my life by not just restricting my self with books. however, life’s like tt…

1st weekend for new block always has its own syndrome. bangun lmbat, prasaan meronggeng2 yg meluap2, note seminggu tapi dah bleh occupy 1 file yg dibiarkan dgn selambanya bertimbun atas meja, have strong urge to watch akademi fantasia from the beginning until the end of the concert &…staying at cc for hours. heh… no wonder at the end of block, it also gives another klise syndrome (staying at room 24 hours except dah lapar gila nak makan, dok ngadap buku smpai berbaring, baca buku sambil berjalan <– things tt i always do bila rasa tense gila, dok termimpi2 about the exam).

            erm… talk about dreaming. lately, i feel quite insecure to sleep. not because of the ghost things, but because of my dream. how real it is, n how at the end it turns to be true. of course it is good in some part (especially when i dreamt about question pneumonia yg akan kuar n mmg btol kuar in pbq, n about my examination mark which when i received the mark from Dr Magdi, it gave me no more suprise). but sometimes, it can turn out to be bad. i still remember tt i dreamt tt 1 of my nephew will die (on tt dream, aku mimpi yg aku belikan baju utk both, but only 1 yg boleh pakai). only tt i did not know which one. so, i told my 2nd sister to take extra precaution, coz at tt moment dia yg ada byk prob time pregnant (bayi songsangla, the fetus did not kick la etc..) but at the end when both of my nephew selamat lahir, my nephew from my 1st sister rupanya yg meninggal. terperanjat sgt time tuh. n lebih terperanjat bila tanya kat my sis when the time naufal meninggal, rupanya sama btol waktu dgn jam tgn aku yg mati ari tuh. masyaAllah.. kebetulan atau…?

         i really want to believe tt all these things is just kebetulan, mainan tidor & sebagainya. tapi bila banyak sgt kebetulan, mula buatkan aku berfikir. mungkinkah hidayah atau petunjuk yg Allah nak kasi? atau mungkin juga petunjuk atau hidayah dr Allah utk menunjukkan yg aku nih kuat sgt tido? heheh

       btw, i dun want to think about this thing too much. it is better to think about so many assignments yg datelinenya makin dekat. design poster intrigue datelinenya… harini! (whut! adus satu bende tak sentuh!) seminar information datelinenya esok (ye ye… tgh carikla nih…) t-shit design msc datelinya…hari nih gak! oh tidak! sudah2.. kene stop skang. better go!