saya janji

Filed under: Uncategorized — figuraa at 7:00 am on Wednesday, December 27, 2006

saya janji saya akan blaja sungguh2 sesungguh sungguhnya next blok

saya janji saya akan stadi dengan konsistennya next blok

saya janji saya takkan main2 sgt next blok (sket2 takperla.hehe..)

saya janji saya takkan buat kerja last minute lagi macam ni next blok

saya janji takkan ngantuk2 dalam kelas lagi next blok

saya janji tanak tidur banyak lagi next blok

saya janji akan fokus kat stadi btol2 nest blok

saya janji tanak buang masa ngan bende2 tak pekdah lagi next blok

hehe.. rasa2 blok lepas pon aku dah berjanji camnih. n now i do it again. dan mungkin2 blok2 seterusnya akan terus berjanji benda yg sama, walaupon tahu akhirnya keputusannya akan tetap macam nih. stadi tunggang langgang n sesuka ati. bila nak exam, baru nk berbaring bersama2 ngan buku yg bertimbun2. tak kenal malam n siang. bila jawab exam, salahkan lecturer sbb bagi soklan susah sgt. kununnya saja nak kenekan kami bg soklan susah2 n tak pernah kuar langsung seblom nih. padahal bukan tak penah blaja pon benda alah tuh. bila soklan dapat case patient, mulala terhegeh2 bagi macam2 teori.itula, inila. padahal diagnosisnya kacang jer. bila nak last2 baru bleh nampak sakit apa. tuhla… rajin sgt lagi….

tapi takper.camner pon, tetap akan berjanji mcm janji kat atas. walau dah boleh predict apa yg akan jadi lepas tuh….heh…

am i a perfect liar?

Filed under: Uncategorized — figuraa at 9:18 pm on Monday, December 11, 2006

knowing is always been better than wondering. but the fact is, i’m afraid to know the truth. people can call i’m coward, coz tt’s wut i am. sometimes, we tend to close our eyes n ears from the reality, n pretend tt all these fantasies are real. we always believe wut we want to believe, n see wut we want to see. we do all these stupid things in order to protect our heart from pain, even we do realize tt at the end it will make us pain even more.

i’m tired of guessing. but i do afraid to let the truth reveals itself. i do wish tt i’m born with the robotic sensation, or my heart is coated with the ferum. so tt i will be immune of every attack of undesirable antigen tt will cause my IgA in tears to fall. but wish is just a wish. actually, scientifically our heart are very sensitive, aren’t there?

no need to think too much.maybe i just should block my cognition part in my brain n stop thinking about all these unanswered things. at least at this nearest time, when my desk already drown with all the books yg mmg mls nak kemas. final xm is coming, very soon. if not distinction (hehe..ntah bilala nak dpt), pass is present enough for me. present enough for this block yg apa2ntah

Are U Smoking More & Enjoying It Less?

Filed under: Uncategorized — figuraa at 9:04 pm on Sunday, December 3, 2006

I’m not an anti towards the smokers, frankly. How could I do so sbb yg my friends pon ramai yg smoke (luckily not my abah). Maybe I just feel irritate when I hv to share inhaling the smoke when the smokers are surround me. Or maybe I feel disappointed to know tt the 1st most prevented cause of death nih makin dianggap biasa dikalangan kita. Or maybe I feel so regret tt many people yg tak bersalah terpaksa bergelar passive smokers & at the end suffering lung cancer. It’s ironic, isn’t it? But still honestly I dun blame the smokers. Instead, I’m sympathy with them n still trying to be empathy. It’s truly not easy to be trapped between the world of habituation & addiction. But, no matter how terlambat it is, it is never too late to quit. Seriously. If I can give all my support in order to make someone quit smoking, surely I will do so.

Back to the issue I want to highlight here, the creative slogan above “are u smoking more & enjoying it less?” was once used by the cigarette advertiser dlm usaha menarik smokers to switch to their product.  The slogan was brilliantly conceived advertising tactic. Almost all smokers who had indulged for a significant period of time wud instantly recognize themselves in the slogan. At the end, he or she might switch to other brands in order to recapture the pleasure & sensation of smoking- macam masa mula2 start dulu. But to he dismay, even this cigarette failed to deliver tt special feeling once derived fr smoking.

Have u ever wonder, why do cigarettes seem to lose tt special appeal for the veteran smokers? Adakah rokok nih dah berubah dgn drastiknya over the years? Mungkin ke pembuat rokok nih mengurangkan kandungannya utk save bajet? No. it’s not about the cigarette at all. Cigarettes haven’t change, but the smokers hv.  Sebabnya, makin lama perokok tuh merokok, the more dependent the smoker becomes on his nicotine fix. Masa awal2 merokok dulu, the smoker derived much pleasure from the pharmacological action of nicotine (bahan yg ada dalam rokok yg membuatkan perokok ketagih). Dengan merokok membuatkan perokok rasa alert, bertenaga, or maybe even  boleh bagi rasa relax & santai. & it is also claimed to helped in studying & learning. Sometimes, ada yg claim merokok nih gak bleh wat diorg rasa mature, confident & more social. It pretty much did wutever he wanted it to, depending on the circumstances sorrounding him while he smokes. In these early days, he smoked maybe 5 to 10 per day, usually just when he wanted the desired effect.

But gradually, something happens to the smoker. dia dah jadi dependent or ketagih dgn rokok nih. masa nih, merokok bukan lagi utk suka2 or booster utk stadi. But he smokes because he NEEDS a cigarette. Kalo dulu2 dia merokok utk rasakan nikmat2 yg disebut kat atas nih, tapi skarang dia merokok sbb dgn tak merokok buatkan dia rasa teruk. Terrible & miserrible. Not smoking means feeling nervous, irritable, depressed, angry, afraid, nauseous, headache &etc. he grasps for more cigarettes to alleviate these sypmtoms, all the time hoping to get tt special warm feeling tt cigarettes used to give him. But, to his dismay, all tt happens is he feels almost normal after smoking a cigarette. & 20 minutes later, the whole process starts up again. Sooo ironic.

It might give an impression tt quitting smoking is not tt easy, rite? I remember 1 heart to heart conversation between me & my abg ipar. At tt moment, I was doing my research in EAP with the topic I chose was something about “quitting smoking methods” (tt’s not the real main heading actually) I asked him, had him ever tried to quit smoking. He said, yes. & to my surprise, he even try the smoking cessation products (gums, patches, etc) which this prove to me tt he has the very intention to quit. But with no success at the end. but to continue about the methods to quit here macam dah pjg sgt nih. maybe I’ll comtinue next publish, insyaAllah.