this is the story of a gurl…

                   Tiba2 rasa terpanggil nak share gambar ni. During raya kat kg, my abg sedara smangat curik buku mama Robbin (pathology) aku n beriya2 nak tgk gmbar paru2 org yg merokok. Tapi sbbkan aku mmg jarang beno sentuh buku tuh, mmg agak terpinga2 n kelam kabut gakla carik. N bleh katakan ada sket2 mengelentong gakla time terangkan 1 persatu kat abg sedara n spupu2 aku time tuh. Isk.. soklan mengejut nih mmg terpaksa jwb secara ‘mengejut’ jugak… hehe..=) So here i am, kali nih try to make this as a very certain knowledge, in order to share with all my dearest frends. (I mean it. specially to my dearest frend). Macam yg nampak kat atas nih, on the left side is ur VERY HEALTHY LUNG. If not mistakenlaa… tapi still can see some molds here n there, which mean tt it also has been ‘contaminated’. Tapi mmg tak plekla sbb kita pon asik sedut macam2 janis asap kan skang nih. N on the rite side is THE CANCEROUS LUNG. Cam plek sgt kan bentuk dia. But tt’s the fact. Kalau x percaya bolehla try bedah dada sendri n tgk. Mechanically, our lung can be described as the site of gas exchange: oxygen yg disedut akn diextract n infused into blood, to be distributed to all tissues n organ. At the same time, we will dispose CO2 in each exhalation, which is the by-product of our bodily process..senang je kan? Budak tadika pon tau nih. but not just tt, the lungs relieve the blood of its burden of waste and return a refreshed, oxygen-rich stream of blood to the heart through the pulmonary vein. Paru2 nih actually internal organs. Yet they are, uniquely, constantly exposed to our external environment–a direct interface with the world outside. Setiap kali kita tarik nafas jer, macam2 benda alien (bukan true alianla..) yg boleh masuk badan kita. For instance; animal dander, tobacco smoke, radon, airborne lead + etc. The lungs, with their tiny air sacs (called alveoli), hv sometimes been simplistically compared to sponges. They r actually far more complex than many other organs. The heart (jantung. Jgn translate ikut BM sbb nti jadik liver plak), for example, is a relatively uncomplicated muscular pump designed, with one-way mechanical valves for one purpose: to keep the bloodstream flowing in one direction. But otherwise, the lungs play multiple roles  supply O2, remove waste n toxins, defence against hostile intruders. They contain at least three dozen distinct types of cells, each with its special tasks n abilities tt Some scavenge foreign matter. Others, equipped with delicate, hairlike cilia, sweep the mucous membranes lining the smallest air passages. Still others act on substances crucial to blood-pressure control, or serve as sentries to spot invading agents of infection. (actually there’s still other roles that remain mysteries) Heh… ok2.. wont make it look complicated, so I wont touch deeply into anatomy or bende2 yg akan lebih memeningkan kepala lagi. Enough with tt. But some may ask, how smoking can affect ur dearest lungs? Erm… camner eh? Kalo nak jawab ikut kepala otak nih, boleh jer. But very unsystematic n tak berapa factualla kot. So maybe continue next time =) P/s- love ur body + love ur self = love u lung

I hate tutorial classes. & I hate pblßsometimes. Coz it always make me feel worse. It makes me feel like I’m the most lazy person in the class. Make me feel like how unprepared I am. Make me feel like I know nothing. Make me feel how clueless I am. & how ignorant I am with all the knowledge that I should know. Sigh…

            I dun know why, but this feeling just come for no reason. Suddenly, at this moment I feel like… susahnya buat medic nih. Suprisingly this thought not came when I was doing my 1^st block-which seniors n lecturers mentioned as the thoughest block. But this feeling just come when I am doing my very 1^st week of the 2^nd block. Which patutnya tak perlu rasa tense sebab tak byk lagi yg blaja. But I think I’ve started to realize tt all of these is too much. Too much for me. Too much for my brain to accept and retain. Too much sacrifice that I should include. Too much responsible tt I should bare.

            When all the doctors try to share how they was doing their study, I try to compare with mine. Macam langit dgn bumi. Dr Nasa said tt our general knowledge is soo bad- and of course mine is even worse. Never try to follow the up-to-date info about at least science and health field, but only depend blindly on the lectures note. Dr Norlela plak cakap, u only know the superficial, but dun know the mechanism. U only know wut’s the initial and the final, but not the sequences in between-just like the common people & not reflect as medical practioner at all. Tt’s mean u know nothing! Gossh…. Isn’t tt is toooo bad?

            I know tt I shouldn’t stop. But at this very moment, my all positive thinking just seem too weak to fight the the challenges. Never mind, maybe I’m just having a bad day. Ooooh my passion, where have u gone?

            p/s-tiba2 rasa cam dah lama btol tak d/load naruto.hehe

Its been about a week in my 2^nd block. Daripada stadi sistem badam manusia in normal, sekarang beralih pulak utk study human body in pathogenic (berpenyakit) condition and how our immune system response to it. X ketinggalan belajar psychology, study about human behaviour. Nampaknya bolehla aku buat part timer as counsellor. =P I dun know why seniors and lecturers keep saying that the 1^st block is the hardest, coz suprisingly I find that this block is even harder. But like Dr Ungku Chulan said, to become a Dr, we have to master pathology in order to diagnosis the disease. And it seems like tt’s wut I really have to do.

            Bila dah masuk 2^nd block nih, when my parents and relatives asked me about how my life in uia kuantan, dgn tersenyum lebarnya mesti aku akan cakap BEST! But actually I dun really know about what’s the exact answer for this question. Yela..i’ve never been in other places or other univ, so how can I compare either it is best or not for them. But honestly pada aku, takde kurang atau cacat celanya belajar kat sini. If asked about the food and facilities mmgla ada or ‘byk’ kurangnya, but terima jela seadanya coz kenala faham yg univ nih masih nak develop lagi. Mau2nya dok kat kuantan plak tuh. Takleh la nak bandingkan ngan KL.

            But after a long while, I finally realize why I do feel that being a member of UIA is the greatest experience for me. Coz I  feel secure here. Rasa selamat, aman atau dalam erti kata yang sebenarnya ‘shok sendiri’. When look back, baru aku tersedar yg selama nih I always choose to be in the ‘safe side’. Choose to study in maahad, then to continue in UIA, where both of this place don’t really reflect or visualize the REAL LIFE. Both of this place are actually like the other side of the world. Hidup dalam keseronokan dunia sendiri. U all know wut i mean rite?

            Actually, this kind of thinking started to play in my mind after a talk that was given by 1 of the very gud gynecologist , Dr … (cant really remember his name). He showed us slides about people out there, out of this place and what actually happened. He said everyday he will face 1 of the new and unique case- SPERM INHALATION SYNDROME. Meaning to say, the girl doesn’t want to admit that she had or has undergoes sexual intercourse even the result in the pregnancy test showed that it is POSITIVE! He said that ‘zina’ or adultary is a very common phenomenon nowadays and it shows as if it is the up-to-date lifestyle. Even the ‘so-called-lady’ tt came to him is so young, takat adik2 aku yg masih berhingus lagi. At that moment, I was very dumbstruck with this info. How ignorant I am, and how ‘shok sendiri’ I always be. I feel comfortable being here, and forget about the society out there- my very brothers and sisters in Islam. I’m not doing my responsibility.

            But then, it makes me feel useless coz I cant contribute or do something. I’m not in that place or surrounded with that environment. And I’m not expose to that kind of situation. And I don’t really know the person who get involve in that kind of activities. It doesn’t mean tt this case not happened in UIA or place where I belong to (of course this place is not sacred up to that point), but that is none tt I know happened to my circle & not tt frequent..maybe. Frankly to say, being in the place where I pointed as ‘a safe place’ pon tak membuatkan aku menjadi insan yg sangat baik or baik sgt. Still byk sgt ketakbaikkannya dan masih terus dgn kekurangan tuh. So I really cant imagine if I am one of the person who has been chosen to play a role in the ‘real world’. Maybe me  also 1 of the person who get drifted. Nauzubillah.

            I really want to contribute something, but I dun know how. So my friends who get the oppurtinity to live not in this hippocrite world, I really hope u all can do something. U all are choosen to become da’i coz u are more closer to the society. sometimes, I keep wondering if I got the chance to let myself closer to the society (yela…other then joining the medical checkup & all Volenteer works. But how close can I be with only doing tt kind of activities?) When we are given with knowledge, that is meant to be shared. And when we are given with something gud, that is meant to be responsibled. Am I rite?

Don’t grieve over the vicissitudes of

ur

existance – u can’t excape hardship!

Life, for the most part involve work and responsibilities. Happiness is an exception or only a fleeting phase that comes and goes gradually. U long for this life, yet Allah doesn’t want it to be a permanent abode for His righteous slaves.

            If this world were not a place of trial, it would have been free from disease and hardship. It would have been a comfortable abode for the best of men – the Messenger and the Prophets. As a matter of fact, who are we to compare with them. Yet, we must remember that every hardship will be followed with ‘hikmah’. We often get blinded with the trial and give the perception that we are not as lucky as other people who might ‘look’ like showered with the easiness and wealth. But the truth is, if we manage to get through the hardship with patient and calm, we could realize at the end that all of the trials are nothing but the benefit for us.

            “fa inna ma’al ‘usri yusra, ‘inna ma’al ‘usri yusra. Faiza faraghta fansabr, wa ila Rabbika fargab…….but lo! With hardship goes ease, Lo! With hardship goes ease. So when thou are relieved, still toil. And strive to please Thy Lord”

*p/s- hidup nih mmg bukan mudah. tapi ianya akan jadi indah jika kita permudahkan hidup org lain

1. Wake up in the last third night to beg forgiveness from Allah

‘ And those who pray and beg Allah’s pardon in the last hours of the night’ (

3:17

)

2. At lease once in a while, seclude urself from people in order to contemplate

‘ And [those who] think deeply about the creation of the heavens and the earth…’

                                                                                                            (3:191)

3. Stay in the company of the righteous

‘And keep urself patiently with those who call on their Lord…’    (

18:28

)

4. Remember Allah often

‘ Remember Allah with much remembrance’    (33:41)

5. Pray 2 units of prayer with sincerity and devotion

‘ Those who offer their prayer with all solemnity and full submissiveness’    (23:2)

6. Recite Al-Quran with understanding and reflection

‘ Do they not consider the Quran carefully?’     (

4:28

)

7. Fast on a hot, dry day

“ He abandons his food , drink and desire – all for Me”

8. Give charity secretly

“ Until the left hand doesn’t know what the right hand has spent”

9. Provide relief and aid to the afflicted Muslim

            “Whoever gives relief to a Muslim from one of the vicissitudes of the life, Allah will relieve him from a calamity that is from the calamities of the Day of Judgement”

10. Be abstemious and abstinent as possible in this fleeting world

‘ The hereafter is better and more lasting’    (87:17)

            The key to our happiness can be summed up in one simple yet profound phrase, the Phrase of Tawheed ( Islamic Monotheism):

            “There is none worthy of worship except Allah and Muhammad is His Messenger”                                           

[reflection from ‘don’t be sad’ (la tahzan) by ‘Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarn