this is the story of a gurl…

Lately I found myself had nothing to do, so I went to library and try to search for some good books. And I did find one. From the red front cover, it just stated a simple title “TRUE MALAYSIAN EXPERIENCES OF AIDS”. But inside it, I found it’s full of sorrow and the reality of life.
I always believe that I really aware what is AIDS or HIV before. But after I read through the book, there’s still many things that I or even people outside there do not know about this disease. To make it clear, the first thing that cross our mind about this disease is: A SIN VIRUS WHICH STRUCK TO THE SINNER! Is it true anyway?It has been reported recently that there are approximately 13 malaysians being infected everyday as HIV positive. Doesn’t this statistic bring such a commotion to us? Or we just sitting here and keep thinking that it’s very imposibble for us to be infected. Could we recognize who are the one that carry this killing virus around us? What are our reactions towards them whom declaired to be HIV positive? And what about if the one who u love very much tell u that he is HIV positive? What would u do? DUMP him or be with him forever to face the difficulties ahead? I wish somebody will answer me… believe it or not, this disease is still spreading around us…
There are many cases that when somebody been infected by HIV, all the people around will discrimanate him, include the family who is actually the one that should give support and strength to him.why it’s happened anyway? Are we afraid that we could be infected too? Do we really know how HIV is infected? Remember this: HIV never spreads through hugging or touching or even talking. U’re not gonna sleep with him anyway, so why we must be afraid? They need us, to give them strength to live up their life. They already suffered to much for bringing the virus in their body that cannot be eliminated forever, so why don’t we help to reducing their pain? It is not us to claim that they are sinner or not. It’s GOD JOB.
For those out there who are HIV positive, please don’t be ashamed to tell your status.because it will help this disease to not become widespread through community. And for us, who are HIV negative,please not to descriminate them.it doesn’t cost us anything.always remember that they also have feelings…and please never trying to be the HIV positive one..

p/s: and I do wish that scientists out there stop experimenting about clonning human which is obviously out of the ethics.do find the cure for this disease…

Uhuk!<—- the right expression of pain, maybe..but the pain I’m suffering rite now is much more than that.kaki aku terpeleot!!!(atau dlm bahasa melayu yg senang nak paham:terkehel) Adus! Hanya Tuhan yg tahu sakitnya. Nak kata terok,tak terok sgtla..aderla takat bengkak dan lebam jer,lepas tuh jalan terjengket2 macam nenek kebayan+ tak bleh luruskan kaki ngan btol.(don’t ask me how it happened!)but anyway it’s getting better after banyak gak tgn yg mencuba bakat urut kaki aku nih.akak+ayah+aku..(but I think it’s getting worst when it comes to my turn).bila ayah aku ckp je nak bawak gi urut,tros angkle aku yg bengkak tu surut jer..eceh..macam pepahamlak..gila! aku tanak gi urut.TANAK!!! iskk… dahla lat silat aku start selasa nih.time2 nih gakla kaki aku nak wat hal.SRP tak lama lagi. Buntu2..

            My true battle actually start this Monday.not really battle la…just a common go and back to class everyday + nguap2 4 ke 5 kali + menggelabah tak siapkan lab report + too many silly things that I’ll do.hehehe..dah bleh predict dah ape yg bakal terjadi.sbenarnya last week dh start masuk blaja.but unfortunately for the  whole week tadek kls.VERY UNFORTUNATELY! =P eheheh..sbb tuh awal2 ari rabu aku dh blah balik rumah. My sister and her fiance picked me up..(eventhough fiance dia tuh ngomel2 gakla sbb tak dpt main bola n asik bising nape aku je sebok nk balik,org lain lepak je?) ehehe..but aku buat muka kerang busuk jerla..disebabkan muka aku yg comel cam kerang busuk tuh jugakla tetiba dia lembut hati nak blanja aku tgk wayang malam tuh.yahoo!!! ehehe..tp syaratnya citer tuh diala yg pilih.(citer sahara pebende tah..whateverla..nasib dia pilih seat dpn,kalo tak mungkin aku dh tido dlm panggung tuh..)ahahha…manyak cakap lak aku nih..btw toche bos!!!(that story is not bad anyway.and i really mean it!)

            Dahla..aku dah takleh benti nih…but really need to stop now.tak saba nak start klas. Ye ye! Tak saba!<—- ader cam rupa ikhlas tak? Hahaha..btw ikhlas kot sbb lecturer chem aku sem nih klaka n sporting abis!SHE’S TOTALLY  AWESOME!Bio lab pon not bad gak kan?mlayang rm35 aku smata2 nak beli lab coat.sob3…sedeh2…arghhh…aku mesti blaja btol2 demi rm35 aku tuh!!!

bosan..boring..sangap…err….rasa macam nak makan rumput…nak telan klcc..nak bom singki…iskkkkk222

just a few days left nak msk blaja balik.rasa tak saba ader, malas pon ader gak.tak saba nak makan kat aroma(uhuhuu) dan malas nak gi klas la..bila aku ingat2 kan balik, byk gak klas yg aku ponteng sem lepas.eheh..kira2 4 every subjek mesti ader at least 1 la…eh jap3.ader 1 exception.except 4 klas chem…ehehe…dont ask me whyla…kalo nak tau,better tanya 4 my ex-classmates.

last week i went to pangkor..my true purpose bukanla nk bersiar2 sgt, but just nak temankan mak berkursus kat sana.ehehe..aku menikmati 5 hari yg indah di…dlm blk sahaja…tak berganjak walo seinci.dok atas kati baca novel,keep switching on and off the air cond(sbb dia takde pengontrolnya).ada smpai 1 tahap tuh mak aku kata dah ader rupa aiskrim dh aku nih..eheh..buat malu kaum je..takla bersiar sgt apalagi gi pantai..very phobia after the incident of tsunami.lagi2 time tuh tetiba kecoh pasal gamat banyak bunuh diri kat PD..iskk….everytime i heard a weird sound, mulut mmg tak henti2 terkumat kamit…alhamdulillahh….nothing happend… =)